kiramori | Eu fiz o L

I don't even know how to begin this one, i'm pretty sure i got a big fat 0 on my test today and it is 100% my fault only.

Just couldn't bring myself to do anything today, it's my fault, i wasn't well prepared and my textbook had almost nothing in it to help me. I thought of cheating the test just so i could maybe do something, but i just gave up and took the L.

I don't know what happened, i just got this sudden depressive outburst today that crippled me for hours. Today wasn't even a bad day, it was really random. I've been feeling bad this week but i'm pretty sure it had to do with how much sugar i was eating, so i lowered my sugar intake and started feeling better, so much so i had some ice cream today.

Gym was great, i had a good talk with some friends then i ate a tasty sandwich. I finished most my work early so i ditched work to go play BG3 and tomorrow is a holiday too! So things are comically well and good for me and yet i just felt lethargic and had bad thoughts all around for hours and couldn't bring myself to study for the test.

I think about how my meds are decreasing steadly in the past 6 months, sometimes i wonder if that is right because sometimes i just feel like this.

I want to bury myself in a hole for a few hours, i'm really ashamed.

Awful stuff.