Fuck my crustacean life

[kiramori]

I've stopped taking my meds out of my own volition, so my mind has been less than stable these past few days. I don't recommend it but I was so sick of being hung on treatment because my psychiatrist fucked up my last 5 appointments. It seems reckless but I was already at the end of the treatment, I'm hoping I can find a new psychiatrist and see if I still need my meds or not. Anyhow, the unmedication process is quite turbulent and miserable, but I'm hoping I'll be fine soon.

I'm feeling awful for things that are beyond my control and I'm really really mean to myself from time to time because I can't seem to accomplish anything meaningful by any form or metric of sucess. I'm being my worst enemy and I'm afraid to treat people badly because I can't seem to get my life together and that frustrates me a lot.

I'm very sick, very tired, but it's weird to wake up without the usual brain fog caused by my medication. I'm also less dehydrated and just now I discovered it's cuz the meds demand a high ammount of water in my system. I'm used to drinking lots and lots of water cuz I'm always thirsty but I never feel fine, maybe that's why, who knows, my head hurts.

I've been out of the loop recently, but I want to go back to making things I like soon. I also have been distancing myself from online friends for a bit because I lack the brain power to correspond, but hopefully I'll have it back soon.

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[glowingfish]

I hope you feel better soon! Sorry I can't say anything more than that.

Other than I like water.