Contrast

[kiramori]

Today i woke up filled with mindless rage, some things made me upset, nothing important though, i will probably forget this by tomorrow, yet it undoubtedly stained my day, i was rude and stressed out.

These kind of days make me think about myself, i was a really mature person back then but today i feel like i struggle trying to be a mere shadow of my past self. I don't know what happened, yet i lived through all that happened and shaped me into a new form, that is kinda insane actually, can you imagine watching you life's movie and not remembering most of the lines you said and half the toughts you had?

We are precious in our own nature, living with yourself is like mimicking a shadow cast on  a rippled surface, you know whats there, you know wich way you moved yet there is so much beetween you and that past self.

It's hard to look at what we are now because the most "me" is in the past, not here.

Well, back to my day. It turns out i ended up having fun, life it's just like that sometimes. I will have a terrible day and smile, yet sometimes my best days are stained by the most baffling inconveniences, but that's what makes what is good, good.

We are creatures of contrast, i will crunch to get projects done for only 3 people to pay mind to them and feel really great about it, i will have a great day and sleep thinking only about what makes me sad, and sometimes i will just have a terrible  fucking morning and laugh with my friends in an awful game we decided to play.

I look foward to feeling down, because it won't ever be a day where i don't enjoy dancing to a sad song.

I just feel grateful for today, even when i was just so mad.